ugh im so annoyed!! omg!! im so sensitive!! i hate it!! when someone yells at me i just cry!! unless its a fucking bitch or something. im so mad right now and annoy you dont even know! ugh life is REALLY REALLY unfair . its nho9t the best feeling either i had stopp my tears but they keep falling so fast. and hard. ): i cant take it i just cant.!! im so mad but i cant do anything about it because i never speak for myself either i try to calm down but when someone talks to me i just break down again. like ugh i dont know i can explain. its so hard!! i had dried my eyes and i was so freaking pissed but when i came out someone talk to me. i broke down its like i cant help it i try to suck in my tears too but it didn't go back in. its hard my eyes are fulllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll): idk.i just dont know.. not even in english..okay well imma talk to you later imma reply to my text and stop acting like a baby i need to finish my hw. i myself know that/ in college professors wont be so nice. and playing lets hide your feelings doesnt last very long either.
sorry agains for not blogging but i dont think imma ever log in again.
because things started changing when you started rearranging.
Yeah you can't change the past & take back what you done wrong, but are you given another chance to make it right for the present? i mean are you willing to try to make a difference? or why even bother? right.
the reason being for me not logggin in is.. GIRLL i've been blogging on tumblrr. sorry i still love XANGA! THATS WHY I AM TAKING HW TIME TO BLOGG. lets see whats new? finished a choir concert, & i surpassed it all though i was NERVOUS I WAS SOO happy to get off the freaking stage . i know i messed up . i know alot of things buit i am not punishing myself cuhs i did good. :) anywayss. thats wssup. dec 2 no moreeeeeeee no more ROP niggahh. then im free hehe <3 then. im thinking of trying for cheer for senior year. dont make it? college BABYY. IFF i make it into one. im getting a D iin french :/ & um.........GEOMETRY, FUCKK. wasnt such a suprise huh? ehh.. here comes the bad news, everyday i think my days of walking here with everyone is getting shorter because i think i have heart problems. when i take in big deep breaths it feels like someone socked me. right in the heart, when i sing especially today i felt like i someone was holding my heart and squeezing it. it feels so fucking painful. like a big girl no tears came out duhh. tonight was a goodnight i LOVEE my homecoming choir and maybe halloween costume shoe ^_^; i doubt imma wear it though probbably wear my moms cuhs i dont wanna fuck up a 32 dollar shoe lmaoo i think i look pretty good today , becuase i love it when cynthia does my hair & dress me up cuhs it comes out so perfect god i love having a sister that's always having my back twenty four seven making feeel good & LOOK good dammit, but i cant accept the fact that im so fat. i cant help it but call me fat i know i am. ugly fat belly. well thats all i need to say byee !:) blog again someday, nope you cant have tumblr website thats a secret. i post the same shit anyways LOL.
so i wanted to blog because i feel like.. i always wonder who i am going to be when i grow up? i mean whats my decisions in two yearws? am i going to pass geomtry? im getting a d plus............ better than F. rightt?? sigh. i wonder am i ever going o colelge since it was all so exciitng in the college night getting all kinds of propganda from people i swear!!
how can he .. he let her be so mean to him? i know shes always mean to him .. idk whats wrong with him he drives me crazy. all though we are kinda cool now. i have to make it up for all those dayus i did not talk to him i i swear everything has to be perfect in my busy life. my life is busy because of him./ rather its calming down after rop and ill only have work my hrs will be done.. and i will just live life so i can hang out wtth my friends have more time at home with my family . i hope i get hired for work so i can have money at least my reusme wont look that UGLY am i right hjaha.another thing ialways wonder is.who am i going to be married to ? will i be different? most likely. im already hcaning in my taste of clothes still alittle girly. but hey? kick it up anotch i wanna be more femenine! not only that i dont even have time to be plucking those hair anymore LOL. its so funny yet so lame! but its trueeeeee im so hairy right now! my eye brows are ridicuoulousy LONGG. i need to pluck them ! and my armpits too! i know so embarassing but i dont care.LOL i dont give. i wonder who am i going to go prom with . i know im not going to get a date for homecoming so ill stop wondering. even though its on my MIND twenty four fucking seven.
lol i m using my tunblr because of cynthia shhh. its a secret bitchesshs;; ahaha; akndlaksndlasd; adlkda idk what to wirte because you guys are idiots!! haha. kidding. ooooOOo SAL WALKED WITH ME TODAY WHEN I WAS LEAVING I SAW HIM AHHA.oooo. not thinking about what im thinking arent you? NAHH i cant imagiine ahha;
It happened this year when i went to cues with kenny & kenny & kenny & priscilla. best memory ever i still look at the picture & cry about good times. i cry for all good & bad things i rally wish i didnt did what i did cuhs i know with you in my life i'd be happier. way happier.
Good Old times you know? Somethings you cant forget somethings you never know. I really regret being a bad friend in times but i guess thats just who i am a bad frend right ?last year was so bad . i cried through out the year there was more tears than joys and i hope this year would be way better .